Come Holy Spirit!

I pray for Him to come down… I want His touch! I long to walk in communion with Him but I am afraid…

I am afraid of not being in control of my own life. I am afraid of looking silly to other people. I don’t want to make a fool of myself. I want to seem sophisticated and normal and…. I and I and I…. Oh Lord, what about You?

You created me from the rib of my husband, You formed me in my mother’s womb… You planned my life before I was born and you died… oh Lord, you died for the sins I will commit long before I was formed.

You wanted to use me although You didn’t need me… You chose me and raised me in a home where I would be prepared for work in Your Kingdom. After I deserted You, You came after me and You plucked me out of the mess I had made of the life You had given me. You washed me clean and set me on the right path again. You saved me…

Then You continued to save me… Every time I made a mistake; every time I took things into my own hands and made a mess of things, every time I got hurt… You were there…

The most amazing thing is that you still want to use me!!! After everything I have done You still seek me out Lord…

Father, my Heavenly Father, I love You! I cannot begin to say how sorry I am for all the times I have hurt You and turned my back on You. I want to serve You with all my heart and I want to be a vessel, pure and holy, in the service of Your Kingdom. May You be glorified through my life and may I serve You faithfully as You have loved me faithfully.

Use me for whatever You will and take me wherever You will. Pour out Your Spirit on me and come dwell in me from day to day that I may be more and more like You. I am ready to accept everything You have in mind for me. Forgive me my unbelief and lack of faith and help me to grow every day stronger in You. I want to trust You with my whole heart, soul and mind for everything and in everything.

May Your Will be done! Come Holy Spirit…

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A new Bed … a new project…

We live in a little bachelor flat and for a long time we have been looking at the possibility of building a bed base that would work like a giant kist so that we can store all our excess stuff in there. We even thought ahead to a time when we may have a bigger place and will have space for all our stuff… so we designed the base to be 2 separate wooden boxes which could be used for cupboards later on.

Finally this dream could be realised and we were able to buy the wood to build our beautiful bed base. It took us approximately a week to build it but we did it together. It was a really lovely family project and we enjoyed working on it together. Once finished it changed things in our bedroom. Suddenly our bed was much higher and a little bit bigger. This meant that some of our furniture had to be rearranged to make space for  the bed.

This was all very overwhelming for me as I felt that my whole little world was changing! Suddenly I felt very vulnerable because nothing in my nest was in the same place anymore. My hubby was amazing though and kept trying to arrange things till I was satisfied. He also kept trying to make me laugh and I was just so overwhelmed at how lucky I was to have him as my husband. Between you and I, I don’t think he really understood what was going on or how I was feeling but he was really being so understanding and patient with me.

I think he is a true example of what a Godly (Biblical) husband should be like to his wife.

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The Big-inning

This is the start of a new journey for me. I will need to start writing newsletters for our family soon and this made me think that I will need to get some practice in writing first… So, here goes to my first practice.

I am obviously not starting at the beginning because that would mean that I have way too much catching up to do so I will just create a picture of where I am without too much detail.

I was bred for missions. I am a missionary’s daughter and am now married to a missionary… which makes me a missionary’s wife! I have known my husband for 20+ years before I got married and we have been married for an unbelievable 1 year and about 2 months…

We live in a very small bedroom/bachelor flat at the mission HQ where we are involved and hope to soon be doing ministry and travelling together. I am working at UCT until the end of the year and after that I will be fulfilling my full role as missionary’s wife and hopefully (if God permits) be a mother soon.

That is a quick summary of who I am and what this blog is about… I hope you can travel with me.